The Strive.

strive / strīv / verb
1. Make great efforts to achieve or obtain something.

There's a lot of different things that people strive for. Perfection. Excellence. Change. Success. What do I strive for? Happiness.

It's hard for me to truly be happy, for several reasons. I get annoyed way too easily. The littlest things will just frustrate me and I don't even know why. Also, I give a fuck about what most people say about me. Don't get me wrong, I love myself and do what I like to do no matter what people think, but the criticism just gets to me sometimes. I'm try to ignore it though, I try. I make bad decisions 90% of the time. The funny thing is that after I make a bad decision, I tell myself to not make the same mistake again.. But when I'm confronted with the same or similar situation, all that shit goes right out of my head and I do the same thing over. When that happens, I just get so frustrated with myself. It's like I'm a big ass fuck up, but I've realized that this is life. Life is full of mistakes and up and downs. I'm learning to cope with "life", slowly but surely. Even though it may seem like I'm the happiest little camper, its a cover up. My big, white smile? Yeah, it's fake most of the time. I'm still waiting for the day when I can truly say I'm 100% happy, hopefully it comes soon. One of my favorite songs to listen to when I'm down is Losing My Balance by J. Cole. Listen below :)

 

 

The Inception.

Hi. My name is Kiara. I’m a young girl, with big dreams. My mother is primarily Haitian, but her grandmother was white. My father is African American, his father was partially Indian. But, I just tell people I’m black.. unless they ask about all that. Who cares about all that in-between stuff, anyway? Music is my medicine.. My main artists (no order) are: Lupe Fiasco, Wale, Musiq Soulchild, Big Sean, Rihanna, J. Cole, Common, Lauryn Hill, Kanye West, & Chris Brown. I like a lot of other artists, but those are just my favorite. I enjoy a lot of old school songs,