I Smell Summer.

What a great weekend! Minus the fact that I didn't get to hang out with the boyfriend. My school had our PowderPuff game yesterday, I cleaned all the junk out of my room, and I'm blogging again :D Also, this is the last weekend of the school year! This week, all I have to do is take finals and then it will officially be SUMMER 2011!

At the Powderpuff game, the seniors played the freshmen, and after that we (sophomores) played the juniors. Since the seniors and juniors won out of the those two games, sophomores and freshmen had to play the loser game and seniors and juniors played the winner game. We won against the freshmen, of course. And the most intense game of the night, seniors vs. juniors, was close but juniors won by 3 points, making them the altogether champs this year. I had fun playing and chillin' with everybody yesterday, regardless of us winning or losing. Can't wait until next year!

Class of 2013 Powderpuff!

I am so excited for this summer! I have almost my whole month of June planned out already:

The Strive.

strive / strīv / verb
1. Make great efforts to achieve or obtain something.

There's a lot of different things that people strive for. Perfection. Excellence. Change. Success. What do I strive for? Happiness.

It's hard for me to truly be happy, for several reasons. I get annoyed way too easily. The littlest things will just frustrate me and I don't even know why. Also, I give a fuck about what most people say about me. Don't get me wrong, I love myself and do what I like to do no matter what people think, but the criticism just gets to me sometimes. I'm try to ignore it though, I try. I make bad decisions 90% of the time. The funny thing is that after I make a bad decision, I tell myself to not make the same mistake again.. But when I'm confronted with the same or similar situation, all that shit goes right out of my head and I do the same thing over. When that happens, I just get so frustrated with myself. It's like I'm a big ass fuck up, but I've realized that this is life. Life is full of mistakes and up and downs. I'm learning to cope with "life", slowly but surely. Even though it may seem like I'm the happiest little camper, its a cover up. My big, white smile? Yeah, it's fake most of the time. I'm still waiting for the day when I can truly say I'm 100% happy, hopefully it comes soon. One of my favorite songs to listen to when I'm down is Losing My Balance by J. Cole. Listen below :)