strive / strīv / verb
1. Make great efforts to achieve or obtain something.
There's a lot of different things that people strive for. Perfection. Excellence. Change. Success. What do I strive for? Happiness.
It's hard for me to truly be happy, for several reasons. I get annoyed way too easily. The littlest things will just frustrate me and I don't even know why. Also, I give a fuck about what most people say about me. Don't get me wrong, I love myself and do what I like to do no matter what people think, but the criticism just gets to me sometimes. I'm try to ignore it though, I try. I make bad decisions 90% of the time. The funny thing is that after I make a bad decision, I tell myself to not make the same mistake again.. But when I'm confronted with the same or similar situation, all that shit goes right out of my head and I do the same thing over. When that happens, I just get so frustrated with myself. It's like I'm a big ass fuck up, but I've realized that this is life. Life is full of mistakes and up and downs. I'm learning to cope with "life", slowly but surely. Even though it may seem like I'm the happiest little camper, its a cover up. My big, white smile? Yeah, it's fake most of the time. I'm still waiting for the day when I can truly say I'm 100% happy, hopefully it comes soon. One of my favorite songs to listen to when I'm down is Losing My Balance by J. Cole. Listen below :)
It's hard for me to truly be happy, for several reasons. I get annoyed way too easily. The littlest things will just frustrate me and I don't even know why. Also, I give a fuck about what most people say about me. Don't get me wrong, I love myself and do what I like to do no matter what people think, but the criticism just gets to me sometimes. I'm try to ignore it though, I try. I make bad decisions 90% of the time. The funny thing is that after I make a bad decision, I tell myself to not make the same mistake again.. But when I'm confronted with the same or similar situation, all that shit goes right out of my head and I do the same thing over. When that happens, I just get so frustrated with myself. It's like I'm a big ass fuck up, but I've realized that this is life. Life is full of mistakes and up and downs. I'm learning to cope with "life", slowly but surely. Even though it may seem like I'm the happiest little camper, its a cover up. My big, white smile? Yeah, it's fake most of the time. I'm still waiting for the day when I can truly say I'm 100% happy, hopefully it comes soon. One of my favorite songs to listen to when I'm down is Losing My Balance by J. Cole. Listen below :)
that picture is adorable and i love this song too!
ReplyDeleteOk, from what I see you are ADORABLE, GORGEOUS, BEAUTIFUL.. the whole nine. If you ever feel down or like you're a "fuck up" just stop and think "there are worse situations" or "someone has it worse than i do". That's what I do all the time , this is coming from someone who used to have the worst attitude and never gave a fuck about anyones feelings or anything at all. You should know how to make yourself happy and make urself feel better. When all fails, just dust yourself off . . and keep moving. Life doesn't end when you fail or make mistakes.. you gotta brush everything off and keep moving. But hey , cute blog & cute picture lol .
ReplyDeleteLove the song too and adorable little dog!
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